I have come to realize I will never be the pastor of a mega-church. But I can pastor a church with a mega-heart. I have to admit I have listened to those who describe smaller churches as inferior churches, and that any healthy thing grows. Any healthy thing does grow…to its healthy, mature size. When something is bigger than it should be, it is a freak of nature. Something is wrong, just as something is wrong when you don’t grow enough, or at least to a healthy size.
I should have read Tim Keller’s words years ago: “To impose a size culture practice on a church that does not have that size will wreak havoc on it and eventually force the church back into the size with which the practices are compatible.” I think most of the havoc has been wreaked on me. But it was a self-inflicted wound. I don’t blame these super creative, gifted, giants of Christendom. After all, we mere mortals always see ourselves as grasshoppers when gazing upon these Nephilim. And dare I quote it, “We seemed like grasshoppers in our own eyes, and we looked the same to them.”
Yes, “They were a people strong and numerous, and tall…”
Do I want my church to grow? Yes. But if the size of the body outgrows the size of the heart, it won’t be around long. Maybe I need to back up, and see that we develop a mega-heart first before we start building “iron beds thirteen feet long and six feet wide.”